Monday, April 7, 2008


I know to some (or many) people I might appear like a loner. As in, I don't socialize with people a lot, I don't talk loudly or take lots of pictures (a lot due to the fact that my phone doesn't have any camera function) or move around in big groups. I'm perfectly happy to sit down quietly with a book, or spend hours surfing websites and reading my game forums. All singular activities that don't require interaction. That may make me seem isolated, which is odd for -mass communication-, but I really don't mind. It's in my nature to be independent and quiet, and being in a mass communication course won't really change that.

Is it wrong that I prefer reading online stories and forums to looking at pictures of models or surfing for funny videos on Youtube? No, it isn't. I mean, once I get into it I can spend hours on Friendster just looking at some unknown person's photos too, just out of sheer boredom. It's just that I don't want to. I'm not so fascinated by cute guys or girls as I used to be (but even then, not a lot), mainly because I'm not interested in looking at pretty girls, or that much interested in looking at cute guys (singers and actors are excepted, because Lee Ryan is cute, and I don't care if you don't know him!) and generally because looking at people who are so much better looking than you generally just makes you dissatisfied with your own looks, and I have enough problems with self-esteem as it is. Besides, I know what I like, and there isn't very much of it. :P /cryptic sentence

Sure, I can be sociable too, but only when I feel like it - if I'm feeling like I need some alone, quiet time (which happens a lot, sadly) it's probably better that I not talk to you then rather than pretending that I'm very interested in what you have to say, no? You'd probably be offended because I'm lousy at hiding my emotions, and you'd be easily able to see that I'm just pretending.

I don't mind being a quiet person..it's who I am.

...and the only reason I'm writing this is because I'm bored, it's 10.40 am now and class only starts at 3. Ugh.

Will write later if bored, byeeeee!