Wednesday, October 28, 2009


I didn't get chosen tonight, and I have mixed feelings. Relief? Yes, in huge amounts. Disappointment? If I admit it to myself, maybe a little. But I know, truthfully, that this was the best possible decision for all involved, and it's just the Leo in me that is a little jealous. I'm not ready, that much I know, and this setup allows me to do everything I like while still exerting the same sort of influence. Maybe when I wake up tomorrow, this will seem like the best idea ever - which really, it is.

Yes, you normal folks aren't supposed to be able to make any sense out of this. :P






I finally realized I have surprisingly few things to surf on the Internet when I'm not playing Achaea. Aside from Achaean forums, Facebook, and Hotmail...I seriously have nothing else to look at. o.o

Yes, if you haven't guessed already that's why I'm blogging now haha xD I know, I know. I haven't blogged for ages. Technically, I should really be doing my 1500 words thing for FTV (television studies) but well...it's raining outside, I have the aircon in my room...and I'm sweating. =.=

Well, semester technically has officially ended, and now we're supposed to be studying for our exams. This semester I only have two - International Studies, and Media Studies. Just handed in my Journalism final essay yesterday, woot. :D

It feels so weird thinking that I'll be going overseas next year. I mean, I haven't got the confirmation that they've accepted me into Caulfield yet (pray for me I guess x.x) but likely one way or the other I'll be going. Thinking that I won't be seeing my uni friends next year (though hopefully I will see you in Melbourne, if you exchange here!)

Sometimes the doubting part of me wonders if I shouldn't just stay. Maybe just one semester, two semesters, maybe...actually why do I even want to go overseas again?

But then I go bloghopping, look at the pictures, read the entries, and even though I know I'll be homesick too, I know in my heart that I really do want to go. I want to see new places, explore new things, I want to know what it's like to really live somewhere else. I know it'll be hard, that I'll miss everyone (and if even Matthew missed Malaysian food, I can only imagine how much I'll be missing it) that I'll miss my family and be homesick and everything.

But I really want to go. It's always been my dream to study overseas. No matter how hard it is (I guess I should just study earlier, bleagh) I still want to go.

And no, for those of you who are smirking now, I would've gone with or without Matthew, so there. :P

I guess I should make the most of my last few months though. Learn to cook(!), go on trips with friends, EAT MORE MALAYSIAN FOOD (although I draw the line at durians, seriously). Plus, it's not like I'll be alone there. From what I've heard, Melbourne is like a mini-Malaysia. :P

And, Monash has tons of holidays. So I'll be able to come back and visit, and be bored out of my skull when everyone gets tired of me :P

Whether or not I'll stay there...it really depends, I guess. I think I'll just see how it goes.

I should really go and do work now blah.

(Hahaha do you think so?)




Wednesday, October 14, 2009


Ok yes I know I am very horrible at updating this blog. *coughs*

And ironically, updating this while I'm already late for class (I'm still at home) is hardly the best thing to do.

But just to update (whatever readers I have) on my life as it stands now:

1. Matthew came to visit. :)

2. I got accepted into Berwick campus (for Monash) but decided that I might want to switch to Caulfield and am anxiously hoping they allow switching so I at least have a choice. I make stupid decisions, I know..even my parents have given up on me *cough*

3. Mayaween is coming on Achaea, and I am busy designing costumes! (that get rejected most of the time...what is wrong with an arrow-through-the-head headband?!)

4. Worrying about my final Journalism assignment, in which I have to do a story about whether govt. exams should be deleted (PMR, UPSR, etc)

5. Feeling a little out of touch with old friends lately. Where is everyone?

6. Wondering about the feasibility of a trip with uni friends!

That's all for now!